COVID- 19 and My Higher Power

I am not afraid of the isolation, loneliness and alone that the COVID/corona/virus is forcing us to live. The self isolations, quarantine for whatever reason the social distancing- Oh no! I lived many years with stigma. I lost many friends due to stigma.

But the day comes when you can't deny it, any more and you just have to say and admit it, I am powerless over this virus!!! The day comes when you cannot deny that your life has become unmanagable, If you are stressing about anything, or unable to get out of bed or don't want to talk to anyone, your life has already become unmanageable

This virus is causing lives to spin out of control, whether its job lay off or worry and stress over it- whatever it is causing you to sink into despair- our minds are our worst enemy.

Just remember: None of us caused this virus and the sickness it causes, no one reading this can control this virus. We can only control ourselves and how we respond because as sure as I am writing this no one reading this can fix it. This is what makes it easier to take that second step.

It may sound odd to some of you but I came to believe and had to admit that only a Power greater than myself could restore my life and my sanity. I had to realize that a power greater than myself was going to get me through this and the mess that my life had become. I had to rely solely on my Higher Power

It doesn't matter what you feel that Higher Power is or whatever your belief is because this virus doesn't care. It does not discriminate who it will affect- male or female, Christian or non-believer, It doesn't care if you are a CEO or work as a laborer, a doctor, nurse or policeman or politician. The virus doesn't care how you vote, this virus doesn't care about your race. It will affect everyone and anyone.

You can do your part by staying in and staying safe and now knowing that when we do have to go out we can wear a mask. For me, a mask will give me a little comfort and security knowing that I won't be breathing in the virus. I have seasonal allergies and have in the past had trouble regulating my sugar levels.

There was a time in my life that I listened when I was told I would not get out of a storm. I realized that in controlling my actions and how I respond I will not only get through the storms of life, but I will walk out of that fire carrying buckets of water! It helps in believing and putting trust that there is a Higher Power who can get us through the darkest of days!

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COVID-19: Finding Comfort in the Steps

The coronavirus or better known as COVID-19 has reminded me of my days a couple of years ago when I walked another path filled with darkness and fear. April 16th is coming up. That was the day that I let go of all of those chains, decided I was tired of walking in fear, darkness, and the shame of stigma and came out into the light and stood with others on a beautiful day to say, we have had enough.

The fear of this virus and the unknown has manifested in so many ways. I dug out my old notebook from several years ago where I jotted notes that helped me get through the days- sometimes minutes back then. I found so much comfort in walking those steps then. Yes, they were different steps back then, but as I read what I jotted down I still find comfort.

I had to tweak it a little but...

Just for Today: I admit I am powerless over this virus and that my life has become unmanageable. I didn't cause it, I can't control it and I sure as heck cannot fix it. So for today, I will let go of this unknown, and the fear that it has caused and just breathe...

I had to learn that I can only control me and how I respond and often it was the promise of Psalm 23.

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